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Friday, June 17, 2011

Why My Man Rocks!!!! (Among other things...)

I have been blessed to be married to an amazing man for almost 7 years. This is our second marriage for us both. We have blended families, been through addiction and turmoil for most of our marriage. But, no matter what we have gone through, my husband has followed after Jesus, seeking to have a heart like His. He has stood with me as my partner, best friend, companion, and my tower. He has stood up for me and protected me even when it cost him. He loves me unconditionally and seeks to be all that God would call him to be. He loves our children and wants to see them grow in Jesus.

My husband rocks because he follows after The Rock of our Salvation. He loves his Savior and desires Him above all else. I am happy to be in second place in his heart. He is am amazing man who has overcome addiction and pain through the love of Christ. I am so blessed that God chose for us to become a family. I am were I am in my spiritual journey with Jesus because of my husband.

Amanda Carter

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Thursday, April 28, 2011

Food Wars

Wow, it has been awhile since I have been on here. Life with school has been crazy. Takes up most of my days and any free time is spent with my family. And what an amazing family I have. They have tolerated my nose being glued to the computer and headphones stuck in my ears for months now. This is the last 2 days of the semester, and only 1 class left until I am completely done. Yay!!!

I am entering 60 days on the SBD. I am amazed and a little suprised that I have stuck with it this long. Usually, after the first month, I am done. No more. But, this has been an amazing journey so far. It has taught me that food is well, just food. Nothing more, nothing less. There to keep my body and mind moving, but not to take over my body and mind. Now, the days of tears are farther between, but still can happen. I am no longer afraid of the scale. (Which I did finally break down and buy, and hides in the cupboard under the sink.) I don't totally dread getting ready in the morning and I change my clothes a little less often.

I can't take all the credit. With Christ as my bread of Life and my hubby as my cheerleader, I have been able to conquer these past 2 months. I would not have made it without them All.

Life is taking some turns, and my reliance on Christ and my trust in food has been tested. I pray that I continue choosing Christ over something that sustains for only a short time. I pray that my choices reflect my devotion and that He is my hearts desire, not my stomachs desire!

Thursday, March 17, 2011

Cravings? What cravings?

Today is the last day of Phase 1 on the SBD. I am a little nervous to beginning adding some more foods into my diet. I have conquered the cravings of chocolate cake. (Which has been around since Saturday, from a little boy's birthday.) As well as the need to have bread or potatoes at every meal. I feeling pretty good about it. Lost 8 pounds as of Saturday. A little nervous to weigh my self again.....may wait awhile!

This has been a turbulent 2 weeks. There were days of tears over having to eat eggs, again. Struggling to stay motivated when everything smelled so good! But, through Christ who gives me strength, I made it through. Tomorrow I begin Phase 2. And just in time! We are making a trip to Chicago this summer to see my step-daughter get married. I am anxious and stressed over this trip. But, I am casting my cares on Christ. He will continue to sustain me through it all. And who knows, I maybe a size smaller, and not have to spend the whole time worrying about how I look....Maybe!!!

Wednesday, March 09, 2011

Life on the Beach is no picnic

As I start this new journey on getting healthy, both physically and mentally, I feel the need to blog about it. Not for the world to see, and maybe for only a few who happen by, but for myself. To see that this is not a waste of time or energy and to see that, maybe, I am not alone in this.

Today is day 6 of the South Beach Diet Phase 1. WOW! It is very restrictive and I am struggling hugely with letting go of my carbs and sugars. In tears this morning over it. That is when I realized that dieting, or any other undertaking we do to kick our addictions, it is a mental battle as wells as a physical one. I am on mental attack. Now, there are other circumstances that would bring this on. For one, I am in Celebrate Recovery and we are beginning our moral inventories. (That includes writing all who have hurt us and all we have hurt.) And Bible study on David is hitting a horrible part, with a glimpse into how immoral man can be. But, I believe that Satan is using this one spot to make it all crumble. My issue with food.

I am thankful to have an accountability partner to talk to as well as a wonderful support group of friends and family. BUT, this does not make it any easier. You see, ultimately, it is up to me to make the right choices. Thankfully, I have a Savior who knows what I am going through. He went 40 days with out food, and I am in tears after 6! I can do ALL things through Christ who gives me strength. That includes this. For I was made to be more than an overcomer. I am a conqueror!!! Through my Saviors strength, I will survive this day. And I will need to ask for it again tomorrow.

Praise Jesus, for HE IS MY SUSTAINER!!!

Wednesday, February 23, 2011

Baby teeth, grownup words

My five year old son lost his first baby tooth. It nearly brought me to tears, that this is such a milestone in his life. He is no longer that little baby, or toddler for that matter, but a handsome, growing man-child. He looks so darn cute with that hole in his mouth. He was beyond excited. But something he told my husband and I at dinner brought a huge reality check that he is being introduced to grown up things long before losing his first baby tooth.
A boy in his kindergarten class says bad words in their reading group. Austin told us it was the "sh" word. "Do you know what the 'sh' word is Mommy?" He looked at me bright eyed. "Yes, I know what that word is. Not a nice word." He proceeded to spell out the word and my 7 year old decided to try to sound it out. So the word was said anyways. Austin is in this phase were he spells out all of the naughty words he is not supposed to say. But, he still gets in trouble for spelling them because one of the other children will try to sound it out.
I am amazed and saddened by the fact that kindergarten is no longer that innocent class of learning and exploring. Even when you have a great school and an amazing teacher. My little boy is growing up, faster in some ways and slower in others. While I love every minute, I am fearful that the innocence of him will be gone far sooner than I am ready. For now, I will keep praying for his little mind to stay pure as long as possible. He is, after all, still my baby.

Thursday, February 10, 2011

Power of the Air Waves

There is something so precious listening to my little kids sings praise and worship songs. Austin rocks out to "Beautiful One" and Abigail loves singing with Christ Tomlin and Elijah can get down with "He Reigns". It is a beautiful sound..even if it is to only me and Jesus.

I love worship music, Christian music, anything that brings praises to my King. So when life is tough or I need a boost, my ipod comes in handy. But, even in the dead of night, His songs resound over even the radio waves.

We listen to AM Talk Radio at night. It helps us fall asleep. So, if Jeff wakes up in the middle of the night, he turns back on the radio to listen. The other night, we were listening to some show in the middle of the night, and they were discussing devil worship. This guy talked about how he worship the devil and all this other weird stuff. People were even calling in asking questions. Sickening.

Then a miracle happened. While this guys was talking about his twisted sense of worship, Travis Cottrell's "The Lamb Has Overcome" played over from another station. Pretty soon, all that was heard was how "if the Son has set me free, then I am free, I am free indeed and nothing can take that from me, when I am free, forever free." Jeff didn't hear it, but that penetrated my sleepy mind and sent me back into a more peaceful sleep.

Thank you Jesus for You control the air waves! His praises will resound and triumph over the devil. Even in the middle of the darkest night, His sound is still heard. The Lamb has overcome! Amen!

Happy Thursday!

Tuesday, February 08, 2011

Mountain from the mole hill

My husband went to the doctor's today to have a mole looked at. It had been growing and being in pain on the side of his neck. They cut it off and sent it in for tests. The doctor was concerned about the color and also is concerned about another mole on his back.

I had just been in Bible Study, studying David. Beth Moore was talking about going farther still in a relationship with Jesus. She talked about dread and how dread is distrust if it is premature and distracting. I can say I am certainly distracted! The thought of there being something wrong is enough to keep me from focusing on daily chores. I am not distrusting God, just wondering why now, when things are actually going well, would something happen.

Maybe it is just time to take all that I have learned in study and begin applying it to my life. Time to walk it out. Regardless of what happens, I do know that God is good. He is in control and I can trust Him in all things. We wont know anything until later on this week. So I have to rely in GOD ALONE to get me through this waiting.

Only God knows the future and worrying about it is not going to solve anything right now. I just need to be thankful for my husband and keep relying on Jesus.